Seat Belts

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seat belt (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

There is something that you should know about me. I don’t normally wear seat belts. It’s not that I forget to put it on I purposefully have refused to wear one. It’s not normally something that I talk about with many people, it’s kind of an awkward conversation right? Usually when someone points it out I’ll just buckle up, especially when riding in someone elses car. I figure it is a sign of respect towards someone in their own car. Besides, again, it would be an awkward conversation.

“Hey man make sure you buckle up.”

“Oh well I don’t normally wear seat belts”

“Why not?”

The thing is… I don’t really have a good answer for this, not one that would make sense to many folks. I have seen the data that has proven that wearing a seat belt is safer. I’ve also seen the sensationalist pictures and videos they show of what happens to people when they don’t.

But, you see, all the facts and data mean nothing to me. Because the one time I needed a seat belt to work it didn’t. Many of you who know me know that my brother died in a car accident back in 2001. He was wearing his belt and his airbag deployed. He still died. When you lose your best friend all the facts and data go right out the window.

If a seat belt couldn’t save the one person I needed it to save, what the hell do I care what happens to me?

See? I told you, not a good reason.

Well recently I got a new car, a 2006 Chevy HHR. Being a newer model car it has a signal that goes off after you’ve started driving that reminds you to buckle up. I was chatting with my wife about this and during the conversation she told me that it would mean a lot to her if I wore my seat belt while driving.

The things we do for love.

Don’t get me wrong, I think our need and desire for safety has in many ways led to much paranoia in our modern society, but if my wearing a seat belt is going to male my wife feel better about me driving than I can take the 2 seconds it takes to buckle up for her. But that’s not the real reason I’ve changed my mind

In Matthew 4 Jesus is tempted by Satan to show his power by throwing himself from off of a temple so that the angels would catch him. But Jesus resists saying that one should not put God to the test. When we do reckless things in life aren’t we putting God to the test? I think there is some truth to that but that’s also not the reason why I’ve changed my mind

In it’s own strange way, the signal informing me I’ve forgotten to buckle up has also informed me that it’s time that I let go of some of the strongholds I have held onto for so long. It has reminded me that life goes on. It’s just the next step in my healing that has been going on for some time. In a lot of ways my refusal to buckle up has been about anger, and my anger is one of the strongholds that has hindered my walk with God. It’s time that I start the process of letting it go.

So since buying the new car I have remembered to buckle up every time that I have driven it. It’s a small thing sure, one that many people do all of the time, but it’s a big step for me. As big a step as going back to church was. Maybe someday I’ll be able to claim that I’m not an angry person anymore. That’s my hope.

How about you? What is something seemingly small in your life that you feel you’ve been led to do that has helped with your healing?